Just a little too uncomfortable for me.

Last night, I went to my friend's birthday dinner at Camino Real. As with any Mexican restaurant, it turns into a club after 10 pm. I decided I would go to the bar and dance. Now, I'm not that open of a person. The was no space to move let alone dance. Somehow, people still found space to dance. I started to get sweaty from all the body heat. It wasn't cool. Then my friend (who is black) was grinding on me. I'm not trying to be mean, but I'm not attracted to black girls. I got incredibly uncomfortable. Wasn't cute...at all. It would be differnent if she were white. It's all right if it's all white lol. It was a huge step I took to get out of my shell, but my friend grinding on me was a little too much. It's a good thing I had to go to work this morning at 9 lol. All in all, I had a good time attemping to get out of my comfort zone.

Apparently a lot has been on my mind.

I've been thinking about this for almost a month now. Should "Stacy" and I even be friends anymore? I already served my purpose in her life. I fell for a friend that didn't feel the same way. That usually signals the end of the friendship. I honestly don't know what to say. I have half a mind to say goodbye and leave on good terms with her. I don't know what to do.

Hm....

I heard this the other day. A woman was speeding on the local interstate and got pulled over. The highway patrolman said, "I've been waiting for you." The woman replied, "Sorry, officer. I got here as fast as I could." This got me thinking. Is the person we're waiting for trying to get into our lives as fast as possible? The optimist in me says yes, but the pessimist says no. So I ask this question: Is "the one" in front of us and we just don't know it, or are we waiting for "the one" to enter our lives?

So.....

I've been thinking. I might change my number. Part of it does have to do with "Stacy". I know it sounds trivial, but I don't want to communicate with her anymore. I won't be her "best friend" when it's convenient for her anymore. I might even deactivate my facebook. Again, I know it sounds immature. Maybe I should get really hot and dress how she likes and go to her favorite bar for my 21st. That way I can show her what she missed out on. A fit guy for a chubby smoker who walks all over her :)